you know what?

I fucking suck at cheering up people. SUCK. I guess I'm not used to it since what I'm used to is all these independent people whom I never see their emotions, so I just go on with life without showing mine either, but now I have to get used to it. Which ain't a bad thing, just a realization. When I see someone sad, all I think of is, damn, and all these other reasoning shit that you shouldn't think of when someone's sad. personally for me, I hate it when people pity me. I HATE PITY. don't give me your heartless pats on the back and hugs unless it really means something. I'd rather be by myself when I'm sad, so I'd rather leave people too, which I shouldn't. I need to handle the words that come out of my mouth better. .

On the other hand, it's APRIL 1st, april fools day, and also my dads and brian truong's birthday. whaddup whaddup maaaaaaaaan. My first post in April. I don't like this month, it's the fuckmylife month.